change;

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.” 
― Lao Tzu

Change is scary. I've always been afraid of it, and that's not something I like to admit. I can't wrap my mind around it; and it's nights like these when I'm by myself drinking coffee and watching Friends that I like to try.

Change hurts. Change frees. Change invigorates. Change kills. Change renews. Of those five things change tends to do, three of them are positive. Best three out of five. That's a win if we're talking rock, paper, scissors. So what's there to be afraid of? The action. The actually changing. Something different, new, unfamiliar. It's scary.

Good ol' Lao said it best: let reality be reality. Or there's the cliche version: live in the moment. The Beatles understood it, too: let it be. People have been saying it for years, and I guess it's easier to listen when you're going through a tough time. I want so much in my life, and I realize that sounds extremely selfish; but I'm ready to work for it. I just don't know if I'm ready for all the change. When I picture my life 10 years from now, it's so big and wonderful. I just look past the change, and see myself there. Maybe that's how you distinguish passions and goals. When you have a certain passion, you look towards the future and just see yourself there. You don't even acknowledge the journey, really. You're just there. A goal, on the other hand, involves a lot of work. And it's much more difficult to picture yourself post goal.

So I'm honestly taking Lao's advice to heart. I'm going to let reality be reality. I'm going to be. Let things flow forward. Because I have the assurance of God's hand guiding me along. He knows what I want and He knows what I need. He's there even when I don't deserve Him to be. And he has blessed me so much. So much. My life will be what He wants it to be and if my past is any clue to what the future holds, I can't wait to go on this journey. This wild, crazy, ever-changing journey called life.